Questions from the curious

The other day i asked my friend to throw me some questions he wanted answered. Figured this was a good a place as any to answer them :D

Questions from Zombie_Plan

Do you get rewards for complying?

Its not so much that i get rewards for complying, submission in itself is a reward on its own. I get punished for misbehaving of course. But i love the feeling i get from being at my Masters feet, serving Him there is no greater reward.

Is there much significance of the collar beyond ownership or being a tool for play?


Collars in historical times were put on slaves as to identify who owned them. To collar someone at the neck meant that you hold that person in ultimate control.

It has a different significance depending on the person but i cant see anyone, Master or slave not taking it seriously. To some it is a piece of equiptment used in play to symbolize the power exchange. To others its represents a commitment and a reminder of loyalty for the slave.

To me, my collar represents a commitment and a level of trust. I feel owned and safe and loved and wanted. It is important to me and these feelings were re-enforced recently when a situation arose where i no longer had my collar. It was a horrible feeling and i felt very alone.

How did you realize you liked BDSM?

I had to think about this question for awhile. Because before i had met Master i had never properly experienced any aspect of BDSM. I think, ive always been a very submissive person and the idea, of being owned, and of being somebodies slave appealed to me. It was something that i talked to Master alot about and i didnt just leap into it, well id like to think i didnt lol. There was atleast some research and consideration put into the decision to give it a try.

The masochism, and love of pain came later. I always said id try anything once, twice even, three times for consistency. Master introduced me to different kinds of pain and i havnt found any that i havnt liked yet :P

It feels like Master breaks me into tiny little pieces and then puts me back together again. Im not sure how to explain the way i feel, because i know that its the opposite to what alot of people would feel in the same situation. But i feel safe, and loved and cherished that Master would care enough to punish me.

Hope this answers some of your questions...also hope i didnt alarm your girlfriend too much :P anyway enjoy.

Respectfully,
girl