The other day i asked my friend to throw me some questions he wanted answered. Figured this was a good a place as any to answer them :D
Questions from Zombie_Plan
Do you get rewards for complying?
Its not so much that i get rewards for complying, submission in itself is a reward on its own. I get punished for misbehaving of course. But i love the feeling i get from being at my Masters feet, serving Him there is no greater reward.
Is there much significance of the collar beyond ownership or being a tool for play?
Collars in historical times were put on slaves as to identify who owned them. To collar someone at the neck meant that you hold that person in ultimate control.
It has a different significance depending on the person but i cant see anyone, Master or slave not taking it seriously. To some it is a piece of equiptment used in play to symbolize the power exchange. To others its represents a commitment and a reminder of loyalty for the slave.
To me, my collar represents a commitment and a level of trust. I feel owned and safe and loved and wanted. It is important to me and these feelings were re-enforced recently when a situation arose where i no longer had my collar. It was a horrible feeling and i felt very alone.
How did you realize you liked BDSM?
I had to think about this question for awhile. Because before i had met Master i had never properly experienced any aspect of BDSM. I think, ive always been a very submissive person and the idea, of being owned, and of being somebodies slave appealed to me. It was something that i talked to Master alot about and i didnt just leap into it, well id like to think i didnt lol. There was atleast some research and consideration put into the decision to give it a try.
The masochism, and love of pain came later. I always said id try anything once, twice even, three times for consistency. Master introduced me to different kinds of pain and i havnt found any that i havnt liked yet :P
It feels like Master breaks me into tiny little pieces and then puts me back together again. Im not sure how to explain the way i feel, because i know that its the opposite to what alot of people would feel in the same situation. But i feel safe, and loved and cherished that Master would care enough to punish me.
Hope this answers some of your questions...also hope i didnt alarm your girlfriend too much :P anyway enjoy.
Respectfully,
girl
Tuesday, November 17
Saturday, November 14
Masochism in the workplace
masochist
mas·och·ism n.
1. The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused.
2. The deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.
3. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.
This is a general definition of what a masochist is. To me though it dosnt do it justice. Dosnt explain the electric feeling all over your skin when you sit blindfolded waiting for the first stroke of His hand, the way you shiver in anticipation not knowing where it will land or how hard it will be. Then the feeling of pain and pleasure that fills your body after its landed. And it definitely dosnt explain the re-enforced feeling of submission that you feel after every stroke has hit.
In my last post i mentioned briefly some of the toys Master has that inflict pain. Each one of these has a different feeling and leaves a different mark, and some have a very different psychological response.For example when im being spanked by His bare hand its skin to skin contact it makes me feel closer to Him. In comparison when He uses the cane i will flinch away from it, the pain level caused isnt too much but the sensation is something entirely different, and the different parts of the body that He can use it on make it a formidable type of pain. When He uses it on me i feel instantly more submissive, i press myself closer to the ground (or whatever im tied to at the time :P) and i avoid eye contact.
Both ways (and others) of inflicting pain gain a sexual response from me. But its not just the pain that turns me on its the psychological feelings that it causes. The feeling of being completely under His control and being in a situation where He can do anything He wishes with me. And once again it comes back to the feeling of submission. To me it just feels right, no matter what form it takes.
I was asked by a friend, 'how far is too far?' which is a good question. I have never reached a point where ive had to use my safe word because the pain my Master is giving me is too much. But too far, to me is when the pain stops being pleasure or when it all becomes to much in my head. There have been times ive been screaming and crying but when im asked if im ok i still grin and say yes.
In your mind, if feels like your balanced on the edge of panic, of it all being to much then you get pushed a little further and you find that it isnt too much and that your still ok. If i didnt trust my Master, and if i didnt KNOW that my safe word would be respected i doubt i would be able to take as much pain as i do. I feel like i can take more not because i know its not to much, but because He does and He would never hurt me so whatever is happening is ok.
I think, masochism for everyone must be different. For me i love the pain, i love every aspect of it and how gentle Master is afterwards. I love to please Him and this is something that does that, its completely incidental that it also turns me on :P .
`Respectfully,
girl
mas·och·ism n.
1. The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused.
2. The deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.
3. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.
This is a general definition of what a masochist is. To me though it dosnt do it justice. Dosnt explain the electric feeling all over your skin when you sit blindfolded waiting for the first stroke of His hand, the way you shiver in anticipation not knowing where it will land or how hard it will be. Then the feeling of pain and pleasure that fills your body after its landed. And it definitely dosnt explain the re-enforced feeling of submission that you feel after every stroke has hit.
In my last post i mentioned briefly some of the toys Master has that inflict pain. Each one of these has a different feeling and leaves a different mark, and some have a very different psychological response.For example when im being spanked by His bare hand its skin to skin contact it makes me feel closer to Him. In comparison when He uses the cane i will flinch away from it, the pain level caused isnt too much but the sensation is something entirely different, and the different parts of the body that He can use it on make it a formidable type of pain. When He uses it on me i feel instantly more submissive, i press myself closer to the ground (or whatever im tied to at the time :P) and i avoid eye contact.
Both ways (and others) of inflicting pain gain a sexual response from me. But its not just the pain that turns me on its the psychological feelings that it causes. The feeling of being completely under His control and being in a situation where He can do anything He wishes with me. And once again it comes back to the feeling of submission. To me it just feels right, no matter what form it takes.
I was asked by a friend, 'how far is too far?' which is a good question. I have never reached a point where ive had to use my safe word because the pain my Master is giving me is too much. But too far, to me is when the pain stops being pleasure or when it all becomes to much in my head. There have been times ive been screaming and crying but when im asked if im ok i still grin and say yes.
In your mind, if feels like your balanced on the edge of panic, of it all being to much then you get pushed a little further and you find that it isnt too much and that your still ok. If i didnt trust my Master, and if i didnt KNOW that my safe word would be respected i doubt i would be able to take as much pain as i do. I feel like i can take more not because i know its not to much, but because He does and He would never hurt me so whatever is happening is ok.
I think, masochism for everyone must be different. For me i love the pain, i love every aspect of it and how gentle Master is afterwards. I love to please Him and this is something that does that, its completely incidental that it also turns me on :P .
`Respectfully,
girl
Friday, November 13
What are these strawberries doing on my nipples, i need them for the fruit salad!
So to start off this blog im going to outline the kind of relationship i have with my Master and the psychological part of my submission to Him. im in a Master/slave relationship where i give all control to my Master. He owns me and im His to use as He wants. In return he makes me feel safe and loved. He looks after me and helps me to explore my emotional and physical potential. im His collared slave and wear a slave collar to represent this to others and to remind me who i belong to.
Everything that we do is consensual but alot of people have a misguided view of BDSM relationships. Master never takes control away from me, i 'give' it to him freely. He would never harm me and He makes me feel special and very loved.
Part of our relationship involves pain. Im a masochist and i get sexual pleasure from pain. Master has alot of ways of causing pain >.< He uses a cat 'o nine tails, a studded leather paddle, a bamboo cane, a riding crop and his bare hand. He also has Nipple clamps (theyre evil he he). When we are playing if i go over my pain thresh hold or i feel frightened or i just need to stop for any reason i can say my safe word and Master stops instantly, unties me and holds me until im ok again.
Safe words are a very important part of a M/s relationship. Having one enables me to feel safe no matter what is happening because i can control how far it goes. By the same token Master tries not to put me into a situation where i will need to use it as it can be very upsetting for a slave to have to call a halt to anything that is happening.
submission to me, being a slave, feels right. There is no place safer then in His arms or at His feet. I dont have to think or worry about anything because i know exactly what is required of me, and i know what happens if i do something to displease Him. Im not always worrying that i will do something to annoy my Master and He will leave me. We are so much more open and relaxed then any vanilla (non BDSM) relationship ive been in. We talk everything through and i dont feel at all shy with Him.
Recently we played with another couple. They were also a BDSM couple. Aspects of their relationship were different but the fundamentals were both the same. It was good to be able to see how other couples are around each other, and to talk to them both about their relationship. During the night Master had said so many things about me that made me almost glow with pride. Im very glad that i met Him and im very glad that i am His,
` Respectfully,
girl
next post...Masochism in the workplace :P
Everything that we do is consensual but alot of people have a misguided view of BDSM relationships. Master never takes control away from me, i 'give' it to him freely. He would never harm me and He makes me feel special and very loved.
Part of our relationship involves pain. Im a masochist and i get sexual pleasure from pain. Master has alot of ways of causing pain >.< He uses a cat 'o nine tails, a studded leather paddle, a bamboo cane, a riding crop and his bare hand. He also has Nipple clamps (theyre evil he he). When we are playing if i go over my pain thresh hold or i feel frightened or i just need to stop for any reason i can say my safe word and Master stops instantly, unties me and holds me until im ok again.
Safe words are a very important part of a M/s relationship. Having one enables me to feel safe no matter what is happening because i can control how far it goes. By the same token Master tries not to put me into a situation where i will need to use it as it can be very upsetting for a slave to have to call a halt to anything that is happening.
submission to me, being a slave, feels right. There is no place safer then in His arms or at His feet. I dont have to think or worry about anything because i know exactly what is required of me, and i know what happens if i do something to displease Him. Im not always worrying that i will do something to annoy my Master and He will leave me. We are so much more open and relaxed then any vanilla (non BDSM) relationship ive been in. We talk everything through and i dont feel at all shy with Him.
Recently we played with another couple. They were also a BDSM couple. Aspects of their relationship were different but the fundamentals were both the same. It was good to be able to see how other couples are around each other, and to talk to them both about their relationship. During the night Master had said so many things about me that made me almost glow with pride. Im very glad that i met Him and im very glad that i am His,
` Respectfully,
girl
next post...Masochism in the workplace :P
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